mistletoe and midnight

Mistletoe and Midnight
jessica k. shannon

it's always been a mystery
a veiled valentine;
a holiday package
never opened in time.

ice cream with no flavor,
a love song with no rhymes.
a dainty, pretty slipper
not of the glass kind.

questions go unanswered,
as the years crawl by.
pixie dust is waning,
leaving tears in their stride.

the glitter of a new year
blazes through the sky,
perhaps this masqueraded moment
will finally be mine.

but for now there's
no kiss. never kisses.
under mistletoe or midnight.

backwards rain

Storm
Jessica K. Shannon

I loved you like backwards rain;
Like upside down snowflakes;
Like criss-crossed streaks of
Lightning.

It was sudden;
It was fearless;
It was a
Beautiful,
Ridiculous mess.

But the rain stopped.
The snow melted,
And I couldn't hear the
Thunder anymore.

You wanted another,
But the sunshine
Of my heart is
Still a storm.

you belong with...

i had so many chances, but i let them all slip by.
it wouldn't have mattered anyway,
i'd still be the one to cry.

i'm trying to figure out what to do with this hurt
i guess i'll just have to write...

a song::


Pretender
Jessica K. Shannon

I'm such an actress,
My smile's painted on.

I tiptoe around it, but
You're my favorite song.
And you can't tell,
You never even took the hint.

And it's over.
And it never began.

{The day you told me it was serious
The night you called me your best friend}

I'm just a pretender;
I'm just a dancer,
Waltzing to the music in my head.

I'm the greatest imitator,
But I'm showered with regret.

{The day you told me it was serious
The night you called me your best friend}

I broke in places I didn't know I had.

{{you're like the hook in my favorite song;; i wanna sing you}}

She's in Love with You
JKS

she's in love with you and you play along.
{forget to speak; play your song}
it's how you always wanted it
when she was gone and you were left.
now here she is, back by your side,
but so is this foreign ache.
{the one you've tried to hide}
another one took her place--
another heart, a different face--
you clamor for the thoughts to fade
revert right back to former days,
when she was all you'd want.
--but lies stain and eyes tell the story.
your eyes don't look at her as they once did.
{they're distant. contemplating that new face--
that lovely heart.}
she's been replaced by someone
you didn't have to wait for.






...just kiss me
jessica k. shannon

it's a breath away
only a step away
your heart beat's been giving it away.

that kiss.
{the one our whispers
and glances
and teasing
hint at.}

we long for that knowing silence;
the stare and the flutter.
don't hesitate--
i want this too.
my eyes are begging you--
just kiss me.

sleeping to dream about you

i'm falling in love with you.
with you, friend.

Hello, tell me you know
Yeah, you figured me out
Something gave it away
And it would be such a beautiful moment
To see the look on your face
To know that I know that you know now

And baby that’s a case of my wishful thinking
You know nothing
Cause you and I
Why, we go carrying on for hours on end
We get along much better
Than you and your girlfriend

Well all I really wanna do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still can’t say it after all we’ve been through
And all I really want from you is to feel me
As the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me
If it kills me

Well how long, can I go on like this,
Wishing to kiss you,
Before I rightly explode?
This double life I lead isn’t healthy for me
In fact it makes me nervous
If I get caught I could be risking it all

--jason mraz

it's a new dawn; it's a new day

it seems i can never get it right.
either you're always around
or you're just too hard to find.

i miss you because you're far away
and miss someone else
though beside me they stay.

love is a butterfly dance of a thing.
i yearn for metamorphosis.

past feelings:: new hope

Afterthought
jessica k. shannon


forgotten; given half-hearted
acknowledgement:
this is what i've come to
when i wished for nothing less
than his heart beat.
condemn. make fun
if you must --
I deserve the ridicule for such imaginings.

this heart will not forget;
these eyes forbid erase
the moments which have
made my affection go to waste.
it grieves me to admit that in
want of his heart, I became his
afterthought...

..pinpointed melody..

..pinpointed melody..

"The music began slowly
myheart did not recognize its
start--half past falling i was in love
so that I cannot pinpoint
its melody.. <><>
the ache of your half-hearted care
haunts me even now
hours, days, slip by;; yet your lips are s e aled--
to be sure the beat of your heart which this mind
thought well read ;;betrayed your silence
and here I sit :: like an infantile creature, -->frozzen with
the love I have for you
desperate and e x p o s e d-
your unspoken words have stained the very core of me
this lonely little dove that I am
will carry your heart beat in hers forever,,]
now tell me :: can you pinpoint that melody?< ♥ > "

-JKS ♥

could it be?

i told someone i was in love with you tonight. i've never said it out loud before. it just sort of spilled out of my heart before i had time to think about what i was saying. although i said it, i hope it's not true, because you don't feel the same and the rational side of me knows you never will. it was most likely the dreamy, wishful thinking corner of my heart that surfaces now and then who spoke at that time. but, all the same i still wonder:: does love have to be reciprocal? if not, then part of what i said is probably true. wow. i wonder what it would be like to be loved like the way i love you? i wouldn't wish it on anyone really; the stain runs too deep. no matter how hard i try to erase you, the marks you've left on my heart resurface again and again. i still light up when you walk into the room, even though now it's only in my mind______<3

{lost in a silent ballet}

i feel as if i am bursting and need to write everything down that's threating to overwhelm my heart. i've come to the realization that i've always been different, and i don't think people know how to handle my "different" nature either. it's so frustrating sometimes. just once i want someone to understand and sincerely care, not a transitory affection, but a deep, soul-changing, and reciprocal admiration. the absence of this, after awhile, takes a toll on me. I'm tired of supposing and guessing, almosts, and if-only's. i'm tired of gravitating toward quotations like this:

"If we could just be immobile for some time and finally figure out the way we feel
About the missing puzzle pieces and cloudy question marks that still look a bit surreal."

"If we could sit together a moment and talk forever just to pass the time
I would smile as the shivers and chills run down my spine when your eyes
are locked on mine."

"If this is what I call home, why does it feel so alone?
So tell me darling, do you wish we'd fall in love?
All the time, All the time..."

i'm tired of never being enough.

lovely edward

click here for an 8 minute clip of the new adaptation of Austen's "Sense and Sensibility". from 3:12-5:00 in the video..i love this!

a myriad of thoughts...

Little Sparrow
JKS

Her sighs were as whispers on the breath of a surfacing wind
Stifled, silent, beguiling thoughts steal past her glittering lips
She waits
Waiting: her vice, her habit
Waiting that consumes, entangles.
Criss-crossed heart strings threaten
To starve her love
Love that flits across the wing of
Your forgetfulness
The bereft sparrow’s cry
Matches her barren soul;
Besieged, she surrenders.

more poetry...

Morning

Slowly and gently above trees and mist,
Heaven’s dew drops
A soft angel kiss.
The tears on my window, shelter from pain
This heartache, this madness,
This one lovely stain.

By day break, a bird’s song wakes up the world,
It’s haunting, it’s thrilling,
With heart beat unfurled.
The dawn is rising, and sleep dissipates,
Enchanted one
Rising, blinking awakes.

sonnet practice...

Happily Ever After?

Skimming through the pages of the book
My eyes begin to wonder at the sight;
The pictures are enough to cause a fright,
Of fairy tales and witches, cinder soot.
Stepmother in the mirror takes a look,
At her rival Snow White’s horrid plight.
Gorgeous gowns are ripped as in a fight,
An orphaned girl stands hovered in a nook.
Mermaids walk on land, and fishes sing;
Petals from a rose predict a fate;
Animals talk and dance in merry glee.
In battle pirate swords do swing;
A spinning wheel embodies someone’s hate,
And true love is released but for a fee.

Unexpected Love

I don’t know when my heart first thought of you.
Your very name awakens such despair,
That longing for your love just breeds a tear.
I guess it’s something only dreamers do.
At first your friendship only got me through,
Now your eyes on mine shake me with fear.
I know I act as if I couldn’t care,
It’s just because this heartache’s so brand new.
I hope against all hope that you might feel
A little of what grips my heart each day,
That you beside me is my only wish.
Days are short, so time we both must steal.
If ever needless doubts get in your way
Dispel them all with but a simple kiss.