could it be?

i told someone i was in love with you tonight. i've never said it out loud before. it just sort of spilled out of my heart before i had time to think about what i was saying. although i said it, i hope it's not true, because you don't feel the same and the rational side of me knows you never will. it was most likely the dreamy, wishful thinking corner of my heart that surfaces now and then who spoke at that time. but, all the same i still wonder:: does love have to be reciprocal? if not, then part of what i said is probably true. wow. i wonder what it would be like to be loved like the way i love you? i wouldn't wish it on anyone really; the stain runs too deep. no matter how hard i try to erase you, the marks you've left on my heart resurface again and again. i still light up when you walk into the room, even though now it's only in my mind______<3